So...I took a year off from chorus last year. I missed it a lot and was excited to be back in my favorite class once again this year. However, there is a problem. I feel so disconnected from the chorus. Like, they went to mars and back while I was gone and are now looking at me like I'm the Martian. I feel like I have NO friends in that class whatsoever. Like in my absence people made new friends and don't know how to deal with me anymore. Chorus doesn't feel like a family to me anymore. It's like I'm staying with a bunch of long lost relatives from another country. If it weren't for the fact that I am singing, and back to doing something I love...it would be painful. Everyone is trying to figure out harmonies by themselves and trying to improve their sight reading. They have a totally different outlook on chorus in general. I just sing! I mean that's it. Is that so bad? While I have improved my sight reading skills because of the piano...kind of...I still am sooooo not at the levels of others. There's this one girl who I swear could teach the class. There's also a new girl and I really want to make friends with her because...she could be my new Friend in the Chorus. And sure do I need one. I'm almost happy for the large amount of AP work...it keeps me from realizing I don't have a life. I am in desperate need of new friends...if you see any, send them my way please!
P.S I got some wonderful complements about my singing today from members of the chorus, that made me happy, but also almost made me feel more lonely...like they know I'm there but are ignoring me purposefully, even though that's probably not the case.
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