SCREAM!!!

So chorus is again confusing me with scales.  That's not what made me mad though.  There is a kid in the class that DRIVES ME UP THE @#$@$ WALL!!!  I Can't STAND that boy.  He's such a know it all.  It's like I would appreciate your knowledge if you weren't so egotistical about it.  There is a girl in a lot of my other classes that is probably ten times smarter than me and I look up to her.  This guy on the other hand makes me want to punch him in the face.  I was trying to be broad in my statement in saying, in a chorus class, that Native Americans came from the far east (Asia and Oceana) to the Americas.  I did this by demonstrating with my hand that they went towards the right.  He then had to correct me by saying that the natives in fact came across on the Berring Strait...like no shit Sherlock.  Anyone who passes the 5th grade knows that.  Also, I'm in AP US History right now.  I'm not an idiot okay?!?!  Then we were finally learning the piece that the question came from (it was a Hawaiian piece) and our chorus director asked another question, does anyone know the history of the hula?  I said that the hula dance is a complicated series of motions that tells a story.  Then this guy basically repeated me adding more fancy words. Like can you please stop. just stop. stop. now. please. I'm begging you.

                                         XOXOXOXOXOXOXO Mel.      

A Melancholy Melody

Crying because I have to give up piano.  I know, I really need to practice more...but it's difficult sometimes to get into the habit.  And I know that it makes financial sense to discontinue it, but I feel like I let everyone down; my parents, my piano teacher, my family and friends that know that I'm learning. 

Anyway, there is no benefit in dwelling on the past.  I still have my books and I'll still play when I can.  I guess in this way there's no more pressure on me.  When homework lightens up I will definitely sit on that bench again and play.  I love piano and always will.  Without lessons I can still be successful...and maybe once I've spent a while doing that, I can get a teacher again.  I will miss my piano teacher, but maybe when college comes around I will give lessons another try.

                                XOXOXOXO Mel.

Sing For Me!!

So...I took a year off from chorus last year.  I missed it a lot and was excited to be back in my favorite class once again this year.  However, there is a problem.  I feel so disconnected from the chorus.  Like, they went to mars and back while I was gone and are now looking at me like I'm the Martian.  I feel like I have NO friends in that class whatsoever.  Like in my absence people made new friends and don't know how to deal with me anymore.  Chorus doesn't feel like a family to me anymore.  It's like I'm staying with a bunch of long lost relatives from another country.  If it weren't for the fact that I am singing, and back to doing something I love...it would be painful.  Everyone is trying to figure out harmonies by themselves and trying to improve their sight reading.  They have a totally different outlook on chorus in general.  I just sing!  I mean that's it.  Is that so bad?  While I have improved my sight reading skills because of the piano...kind of...I still am sooooo not at the levels of others.  There's this one girl who I swear could teach the class.  There's also a new girl and I really want to make friends with her because...she could be my new Friend in the Chorus.  And sure do I need one.  I'm almost happy for the large amount of AP work...it keeps me from realizing I don't have a life.  I am in desperate need of new friends...if you see any, send them my way please!  
P.S  I got some wonderful complements about my singing today from members of the chorus, that made me happy, but also almost made me feel more lonely...like they know I'm there but are ignoring me purposefully, even though that's probably not the case.