Monday, December 31, 2012

Poop

Okay, so I don't have to explain my titles do I? 
Well, I will anyway.  By poop, I mean that my last post was...poop. 
Okay I'm officially done with that word.  I was just being overly emotional...that happens sometimes.  I think it's part of the reason that I have a blog.  Well, I hope to talk to my bestie soon so we can hang out more often as long as school co-operates. 

Well, my lovelies have a great new years!  I'll put up my resolutions later.
 
                                  XOXOXOXOXOXO Mel.

Thursday, December 27, 2012

I'm losing it!

What do you do when you're losing your best friend?
What do you do when you're mad at someone you're never mad at?
What do you do when you feel like everything is out of your control?
Do you sit back and watch it die?
Do you hang on for dear life?
Do you scream at the top of your lungs and hope somebody hears?
Who do I go to?
For who knows me better, than my best friend?
                    
                      XOXOXOXOXO Mel.

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Nightmares

Now my dreams are usually weird but this one was awful...  I just wish there was someone I could talk to right now, sigh.  Well here goes...

I was doing a dance class at my house then my dance instructor and one of my friends got into a fight.  They tried to catch me but I ran and jumped a fence.  Then I was in the past at a party my friend was having, No one could see me.  Because I had gone in the past I was now in the middle of the time when that party was and the present.  I went back to the fence and there were cops in the field waiting for me.  When I went back I managed to evade the cops and went back to this big building.  Because I was still in limbo between the two times I was still invisible.  I used this to get around.  Some mean blond woman was searching for me and correctly hypothesized that I wouldn’t be taking elevators because they would cause me to be noticed (if I brushed against them, this time they wouldn't think it was just wind because they were on to me).  I then became partly visible (my own choice, I don't know why) and she caught me but I put some of myself in a secret door in the wall.  I was captured and put in this small “bathroom” and I think I was devising a escape plan when I woke up.

Now I'm just sitting here, just as weirded out as when I woke up.  Because of this I can't look at certain things that were in my nightmare such as...
-my Christmas tree
-facebook ( I went on anyway to help make sure it was just a dream.)
-Harry Potter (While in the dream I established that some of the weird happenings were very Potteresque.
-dance 
-retro bungalows 

I know all of that might seem weird and hopefully it will wear off but right now it's messing up my emotions. 

                            XOXOXOXOXOXO Mel.

Friday, December 21, 2012

All I Want for Christmas is You...

This basically is my year.  All I want for Christmas is You is my favorite Christmas song like ever but its also tied with Baby it's Cold Outside. 
Note: Those are my favorite secular Christmas songs, my favorite Christian Christmas song is Silent Night.

Both of my fave Christmas songs have to do with guys; sigh.  If you haven't already guessed as of now I am forever alone (don't worry just a phrase, I'm not becoming a nun like some delusional Asian I know).  Said Asian pointed out to me that by watching my friends mess up I will be a better and wiser dater when I'm older.  That is true but I can't help noticing that my calls for that one special guy for Christmas fall on good old Santa's deaf ears and that my "Cold Outside" duet is missing a harmonizing voice.  Normally I'd be fine with my solo act that has been going on for quite some time now but near this joyous holiday I can't help but sigh, so sigh sigh sigh.  Don't get me wrong there's lots of love that I'm getting from friends and family but It's still getting to me.  I think I'd be fine if the guy was some blurry mystery guy that I haven't met yet or a dreamy Hollister guy but sadly it's a guy I go to school with everyday!  Maybe after this annoyingly mistletoe covered Holiday is over I can work on my New Year's Resolutions one of which will be : Last Christmas All I Wanted for Christmas Was You.  On the topic of "crushes" here's my question...
Would you rather be really close to your crush or not that close if you knew they didn't like you that way?

                                                            XOXOXOXOXOXOXO Mel.

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Alone

Home alone is probably the best kind of alone because no one can see that you are alone.  This is what yesterday Mel would have said.  Today Mel prefers the solitude...sometimes.

All of my friends had already seen BreakingDawnPartTwo.  I was the only one left who wanted to see it who hadn't.  So, left with no other options, I made the trek to the movie theaters alone.  I had many fears about this.  Would it make me seem like a loner, a desperate would be (age permitting) twi-mom?  No, last time I checked I was still young and hadn't produced any offspring.  So, I walked into the 2nd theater on the left and I sat down.  I watched about 7 trailers and concluded that I'd be coming back to this fair theater to see about 3 of those up and comings.  Then finally, complete with visually cool opening credits, a very well produced twilight came onto the screen.  It was the last of its kind and as promised, it was better than previous despite mediocre acting.  Taylor/ Jacob was looking as attractive as ever and mostly everything was how I pictured it.  Even the "Nobody has ever loved anyone as much as I love you" bogus didn't make me roll my eyes too much.  The cinematography and music were great and my popcorn was buttery. 

So all in all, I had a great time at the theaters all by myself and never found myself belting out the lyrics to the oh so familiar song with that same title.  It was fun and when all was said and done I realized something...I preferred to watch movies alone at home so what's the difference? Who's to say that going to the theater by myself wouldn't become a fun weekend activity when everyone else was busy.

Next time, maybe I'll even tackle dining alone!

                                   XOXOXOXOXO Mel.